cheZziie-licious

Thursday, August 03, 2006 @10:22 PM

loved up. or not..

tears always run.
I dont know what to do.
my heart says yes.
my logic says no.
i love him to bits,
but,
how long can my heart withstand the heartache?

tonight,
my heart and soul cries out.
For comfort. For his presence to be here with me.
poured out my thoughts to certain people.
I get different answers,
some are pleasing, some are not.
the more there's no contact,
the ground turns shaky.

maybe i should have listened to my instinct at the start.
But my heart said go. Happiness awaits.
Happiness? or heartache?
or
both?

If only I was there, if only he was here.
If only we met after uni, things could be brighter
I dont want to lose this.
The joy, the love,
just that undescribable feeling.

Now,
as Tears run down,
down my cheeks,
onto my lips..
I'm thinking...

Love has no boundaries..
maybe there are.
Just that we don't know it.

few months back,
I never dreamt about anything like this,
but it happened. Unexpectedly.
Despite the roller coaster feelings,
I'm happy it happened.

This is life.
You never know whats gonna happen next.
Suspense. Thats what it is.

signing off..

To the guy that I have given my heart to from the day we 'met',
I love you.
and its going to be hard to get it back.