Everything is screwed up. Everything.

My life has been awfully dramatic this past week and I have no energy to handle it anymore.

I am gonna live properly, and forget all my worries.. well, I'll try to.

I've probably made history, and reached the roughest patch of my life. - only at 17.

Life could get worse, or better. or maybe better and worse..

I lost Jon, and life went topsy turvy.

I thought I was coping fine, but now its back to the start. I would say I'm a fortunate.. I get what I want most of the time.. but when it comes to relationships, I don't get what I want.. not for now at least. I want someone to talk to me, cheer me up, shower me with words of affection, to listen to my cries, and encourage me.. but theres nobody.

Everything that has happened, would hopefully make me a stronger person.

I've lost my sense of pride. I walk along the streets, head down, feeling like a total ass.. but life goes on.. i'll pick myself up and continue the journey that I started here.